Where the fxxx did January go!? 2016 and Censorship

'Ring a ring of roses' still of film piece.
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I can’t believe it’s already February. I’m not sure why it’s always a surprise that time goes by and the days and weeks disappear. It’s not a particularly new concept to me! Understanding time is something that we seem to have always been interested in… In art, philosophy, literature and science.

I was lucky enough to hear the Artist Rachel Lowe speak yesterday and she has spent much of her career as an artist focusing on our western, human, preoccupation with time, the moment, the present and capturing it. And ultimately our inability to ever truly capture it through respresentation. We can only truly do this through the experience itself.

As I consider the pace of life I am keenly aware of my own deadlines and upcoming events. The next event I have is my first solo exhibition since starting at UCA. For the first time I will be showing my practice as it exists today… And that is scaring the pants off me!

The exhibition I am setting up is a culmination of the last few months work around mediation and language. The venue is a cafe/wine bar and is quirky and open to my ideas but as a family space still holds its own restrictions as to what they allow to be shown. This was really interesting to me as an artist working with language and it sent me on a path of exploration!

I had an afternoon in the UCA archives and while there I came across some information about censorship which has formed part of a piece for the exhibition. It also led me to have several conversations about censorship with some peers. It turns out that the last exhibition I was in had to be censored briefly as a school group came in. The thread illustration of a vagina in the exhibition had to be covered. I’m not mentioning this to judge the decision of the school/parents or curators at all, but what I found interesting is that no one thought to cover my work…… Not a vagina, but a series of 8 clips denoting violence, rape and assault against women. These clips were in sign language, so it seems that the silence of my violent translations kept them hidden in a completely unexpected way. This reinforces my initial reasons for using sign language, because of the unfounded but consistent beliefs (from my own observations) that it is a ‘nice’ language, meant only to ‘help’ people. No one thought to check the transcriptions and see that actually it is a language as any other and can contain just as much violence and extreme ideas as English….. And in fact contained much more likely to offend material than a Vagina!

Have a wonderful week, and remember to keep your eyes open for any random censorship or lack of it that sparks your interest!

Susan

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Makeup Free Month Day 23: Vogue shows Im ‘on trend’ ;)

 

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A little post today as I’m on my holidays and for some reason because I have children, that means I get to have less sleep than normal!

Today I saw a post by Vogue about going barefaced! Yey! It mentions some natural alternatives for skin care too, to care for your skin so you can feel confident going makeup free. I’m clearly very on trend then 😉 and it’s good to see a high profile fashion mag acknowledging that it’s not all about makeup.

http://m.vogue.com/vogue-daily/article/why-your-moisturizer-and-lip-balm-really-matter-brthe-skin-careasmakeup-phenomenon-/

I’ve also come across a lovely little etsy site that appears to use completely homemade and natural products. I’m going to try and order some to use as soon as my month is up. Not because I’m desperate to put makeup on, but because these products sound so fab I really want to try them! Once I’ve checked out the site and ingredients I will order some and let you know what they are like.

I’m now going to end my day of seaside air and running around with the munchkins with a glass of wine and an early night…. With a quick photo first from my makeupfree day 23. Oh and if you have a spare £1 please text the number below with the code MMFM 50 to 70070 to raise a bit of cash for the wonderful organisation Macmillan, (which I’ve just realised I had typed incorrectly on almost all of my other posts!! Grrr).

Night night

If you haven’t yet seen my Street Art video – Skin- please take a peek!

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Makeup Free Month Day 22: Sexuality and makeup

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For me sexuality has often played a large part in my makeup wearing. Largely due to my reliance on makeup to feel attractive, and feeling attractive playing a large part in my own sexuality. Is this common for women in general? Women in the west? Is it just as much an issue for straight/gay/bi/trans women? Does class, income, race affect it? Or is it actually as individual as I think it might be? Depending on upbringing, culture, confidence, lifestyle, …… I could go on!

Going without makeup has forced me to look at myself, my face and body in a different way. This month I have had times when I have felt less attractive, but I’ve also had times when I’ve felt much more confident in myself. Attractiveness (or how attractive I feel) and sexuality are two very different things, I am aware of this, however for me personally they have always been intrinsically linked.

As I have grown older I have found both more and less confidence in my appearance, but more confidence in my sexuality. And more confidence as a woman.

Through having children I felt a strength and empowerment over my body that I had never felt before. An ownership that I wished I had known when I was younger. Those who know me know I can talk for days about birth, I won’t here except to say one thing about it. I experienced both a Caesarean birth and then a VBAC (vaginal birth after caesarean). These two experiences have played a very large part in how I see my body and how I feel about myself. Both negatively and positively.

More recently through my art I am finding an expression of my female strength and sensuality. Being able to explore these elements through art is very liberating.

In terms of makeup it could be argued that it takes away our power and natural sensuality. Feeling so reliant on it as I have, does this somehow dampen my body ownership? I’m sure there are many arguments towards cosmetic companies and advertising to perpetuate this reliance too. Marketing which encourage us to look younger, fresher, smoother, painted, pouted and lashful! And then profit from our reliance on their products to do this!

But as we have already discussed, makeup is not new. It’s use has not appeared alongside mass media production. Men and women alike have used it for centuries for health, ritual, practical as well as enhancing reasons.

And personally I don’t think it does ‘take my power’. My reliance on it has been a pain definitely. But it’s at times given me a sense of power through the confidence it’s given me.

I’ve always worn makeup for both myself and my perceived appearance to others. What may make me feel fabulous after this month is to wear it only for me in future. Id love to hear other views on this. Whether others feel a similar reliance on makeup, have done previously and gotten over it? or is it just me?

If you haven’t yet seen my Street Art video – Skin- please take a peek!

If you would like to donate to Macmillan Cancer Support please do so via my Just giving page or via text as described below. xxxxxx http://www.justgiving.com/Susan-Merrick

or text MMFM £1 to 70070

 

Makeup Free Month Day 21: A couple of cool resources!

 

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Online I’ve found a couple of interesting resources. One is called the Makeup Museum.

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The curator comes from an art history background and uses, reviews, collects, exhibits and talks about makeup and cosmetics, alongside art, beauty, feminism and much more. The aim of the website is to be a virtual museum, discussion place about makeup and to explore cosmetics as art objects.

As I have discussed earlier this month makeup seems to have been around for centuries, and cosmetics therefore can potentially play a huge role in social history, female history and art/fashion history. The site is really worth a look and her idea if eventually having the museum as a physical space really interests me.

The other site that I’ve found and want to explore more as I come to the end of my makeup free month, is

http://www.starkhechara.com

Star discusses the links between what we eat and our skin, as well as having a plethora of information on natural or organic products.

As I head towards my final week I am thoroughly used to not putting on makeup in the morning now. My skin feels wonderful, it looks better, and I feel generally more confident without it. And there is a little bit more ‘I don’t care’ attitude too! I can’t hide when I’m tired without makeup, but to be honest in not sure how good a job my makeup did of that before!

I am excited however to throw away my old makeup (which is all old, probably past it’s best and definitely full of chemicals). I want to replace it with just a few good natural or gentle products if I can find them. Then for nights out I can still enjoy painting my face, creating characters or looks but feel better about what I put on my skin.

Someone already recommended a product by Benefit called benetint. It’s not chemical free but it is a simple product that can be used sparingly on lips and cheeks and potentially with nothing else.

I have to admit, scrolling through the benefit makeup list just then actually made me crave applying some makeup! How mad is that? So… I definitely miss the art side of makeup wearing. Let the hunt for some good makeup begin… And only for when I fancy!! Xxx

If you haven’t yet seen my Street Art video – Skin- please take a peek!

If you would like to donate to Macmillan Cancer Support please do so via my Just giving page or via text as described below. xxxxxx http://www.justgiving.com/Susan-Merrick

or text MMFM £1 to 70070

Makeup Free Month Day 19: Why the Street Art?

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I’ve been asked on Twitter what I got out of doing the Street Art and what it was like as an experience. So I thought I would answer here.

To begin with, it was an opportunity to bring use my Art alongside a current social theme – skin product health and pregnancy. However, in talking about the project and doing the painting itself I discovered further questions about skin products, cosmetics and makeup for myself.

Whilst the film was edited I’ve changed what I use on my skin quite dramatically, stopping using any tanning products, bought moisturiser or soaps and turning instead to homemade scrubs and salt stick deodorants/essential oils. Then more recently, I decided to do this month of no makeup.

Through thinking and talking about skin and the products that we use I have become aware of what a huge area of debate this is. I have had so many discussions with men and women over the last few months about skin and chemicals, the consumerism and mass financial market of skin care products, our appearances, judgements and our health. It seemed so apt to bring this project to life.

So, the painting, my street art, I loved because I love painting and creating art.
I was anxious but proud to create with an audience.
I relished the challenge of creating using only cosmetics, and doing it in a short space of time (under 2 hours).
I felt excited to be asking a social question through my art.
And I’ve absolutely LOVED seeing Ashley bring it together as a video with The Glass Child’s music!

Oh and I’ve also been asked about the piece itself. My painting. I love painting women, strength, vulnerability, emotion. To do this in cosmetics was a challenge but the products actually worked really well and gave me a good range of colour and texture to work with.
The finished painting is currently sat in my home studio while I decide what to do with it!

I hope that answers the question somewhat 🙂